1. |
fights
03:32
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and then i knew i had to apologise to my body
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2. |
illenek
03:02
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my knife cares for me
and gets me high
my knife saves me from
going to insane-land
and when I feel more than
i can stand
i look into my sidekicks eyes
my boi, my bad, my cut
‘cause with my knife
we are a perfect match
in romance forever
lifelong friend
significant half
what do I do when
you call it self-harm
when it does the trick
it is my last lifeline
my knife’s there for me
and gets me high
how do I even
try leaving it behind
for when life gets more than
i can stand
i look into my sidekicks eyes,
my boi, my bad, my, I cut
‘cause with my knife
we are a perfect match
in romance forever
lifelong friend
significant half
so don’t tell me that
he is self-harm
‘cause it purrs so loud
it resonates in my mind
i really wish we were together not, together not
i really wish we were together forever
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3. |
gore
04:05
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no duh it’s all my fault
again I’m not enough
stomp on my PCB
unplug me from your life
don’t worry about the pain
pain is my middle name
i’ve let it in my cells
absorbed it through
fetal membranes
you’ll see me among the clouds
i died a thousand times
you know i’ll take the bait
the blame, the hiss, the scar,
deep throat me with your guilt
i’ll swallow all my pride
and then i’ll cut a vein
to let it all out
my sweet weapon of choice
it’s why i’m still alive
stab the beast, i will survive
(the monsters on, survival mode – start the fight)
i died a thousand times
(i died, i died, i, a thousand times)
wreckles mode, game on, hunt on,
(the armour’s on, upgrade is done, said last goodbyes)
last respawn, the bloodshed’s dawn
(when sunrise hits, bring on the weary climes)
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4. |
twinkles
05:14
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my little nephew, my little niece,
forgive me for not loving myself
the twinkle in your eyes
numbs all the pains i fantasize about
my dear friends and all who see
the paling scars on my body
you are everything i don’t deserve
but your warm words are all that keeps me here
how does one keep going on?
how does one believe they can be strong?
how do i find breath to outscream
the voice that’s constantly teasing me to go?
twinkle, twinkle, little star
who loves you for what you are
twinkle, twinkle, little star
they love you for what you are
a star
if I wake up tomorrow
i’ll try not to give up again
i, I promise
i’ll hide the knife away
if i
hear the screams
cutting their way outside my veins
i, i promise
to tell them to wait for another day
twinkle, twinkle, fucked up star
ho would love you
for what you are?
twinkle, twinkle, fucked up star
no one loves you
for what you are
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5. |
heart
03:50
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in my heart there are people that
make that muscle pound
make my pupils dilate
make breathing hard
i have built a block of flats
but one by one
they all seem to get lost
or burn to black
you may feel salty now
but you kept me waiting and waiting
‘till i loose all my love
in my heart there are people that
use my naive mind
lie straight to my face
get off with a smile
i have tried to lay the floors
fill the house with flower scents
but it keeps on raining blood
through the leaks in it’s veins
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6. |
respawn
02:52
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and then there’s peace
it always starts slowly
an innocent pain at heart
a thought cutting through the mind
the loss, self-hate, error, bug
the voice wakes up
irritates from inside
as if your gullet was made of wool or sand
it’s quiet
but too obscure and vague
to find the aching spot
the beginning, to quench of the upcoming fire
and so it escalates
replicates, gets louder
is it anger or madness?
you hesitate
too late for that
the body gets heavier and heavier
you now see there is no escape
just tears can save you
will they?
it works sometimes
and crying is good
it helps you clear your mind
but suddenly you choke
you yell
acuity starts to blur
you feel an urge
get up
pick up the knife
hold it for a while
tease it? tease your own mind?
will this be enough?
but you still hear
the shrieks in the wind
you see buildings collapse
you hear windows crash
feel the planet dying
animals drowning
cosmos unwinding
the end?
or is it the beginning?
you see your body leaking
pour alcohol on the skin
soft stinging brings you back in
and then there’s peace
the breath is steady
again you
apologize to your body
respawn
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7. |
habits
03:40
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i sit down
with my knife
i wait for my intents
to come through tonight
it works sometimes
not each day i collapse
a remembrance
that i can dodge some strikes
i tease my skin
assess the pain
will this little game
protect me from cutting again
i feel it’s weight
i kiss the blade
it calms me down
to simply have it nearby
if anyone asks
you can smile and say
you were afraid at night
and that’s why
next to your bed
you’re keeping a knife
don’t ask me about my scars
i know that it’s a shame
the body
the battlefield with life
sometimes a win
sometimes reason fucks up
i try to learn
to call a friend
whenever i hear the blade
whispering my name
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8. |
slayer
04:13
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i breathe fire
the flames choking me
from belly up to the ears
i’m too heavy
no wind can uphold me
wind is too weak to lift this body
in my cavern
the only treasures i guard
are memories and diamonds cut from tears
so don’t say i laugh too loud
it is the monster way
to balance out the worries
waiting for my slayer
to hunt me down
to end my loneliness
waiting for the lances
for the greedy to take away
the few things that i was left with
sometimes i wish i had succeed
how do i even start describing
the void that is devouring my troubled mind
why did i hesitate that day
escaped the freezing lands
i could have put my mind to sleep
i wouldn’t have to kill the time
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